That is the name of my magic deck. that is what i wanna be. lolz.
found out since damn long ago like hope is super important to me sia. since young like i always believe in hope and the mere presence of it will remove all barriers. tt's y i always believed in tomorrow. lolz. tt's y i wrote manhope. lolz. after yesterday's sadness and despair found renewed hope. now like super believe in tomorrow kinda mood. lolz. damn unlike yesterday which i thought was nearing the end of the world. but really the chalet was some kind of 悬崖勒马. which was quite heng. imagine i neva tok. imagine i neva even get the spark to start thinking bout anything at all. i will still be walking along the cliff, maybe off it already. all this thinking bout hope today made me realise something. lolz. "despair comes before hope and success comes after it" lolz. which is quite impressive considering i thought it up myself. lolz.
decided to stop FM. its ruining my life. its like drugs. really. u get super high on it, u want more of it. and u can't easily get off it. but after yesterday, my FM heart is dead. not gonna revive it. and even if i open FM now. i will click exit instead of load last game. really no feel for it liao. not only FM. even WE, fable, BFME2 or any other game for that matter.. no i think i limit my entertainment to magic, movies and blogging as well as surfing net abit of cos. think this dying of the heart is damn amazing considering that just a week i was heavily recommending and totally stuck in the game. no need of rehabilitation like last time everytime when i quit games. starting to feel proud of myself again. spurred. like my song from the temple camp, “黑夜过后太阳就要伸起, 暴风雨过后也就会天晴； 用希望化作风中的羽翼，让梦带走行中的有忧郁。” feeling like that right now.the storm and darkness have now past. diego is back.
lolz.. now really feel like a champion.. feel like nothings gonna break me again.. though i know the time would soon come where i have to face those breaks again. lolz. but this time i have the bravery to face them. i am a warrior. a champion. found out reading some of the flavor text on magic cards gimme inspiration.. lolz. some things like "A single lie causes a torrent of chaos".. that sort of things.. lolz..
nth much else... helping ray set up his blog. lolz... till nxt time... and as i said many times last time... May hope be with you.
THE CLARET AND BLUE
DIEGO
命。
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
3D2N s55 chalet just ended. n am now super tired. but happy and mind full of thoughts. so much that its difficult to organise them orderly. sights fading. feeling sleepy , dissapointed with myself, confused, resigned, the warrior within.
在那里说得那么多话，我绝对没有说谎。却还有些隐瞒。想了许多，许多。
未来？
明天不知如何。 haiz....
now tt i am without H3 or anything cept for mayb i comp n the lion dance thingy. mayb. dunno what's gonna happen to me. thinking back feel very afraid of the future, and at the same time dissapointed with myself. yet at the same time feel that i have tried my best. Have i? haiz. dunno. now my scholarship chances are almost zero. and i thought JC will not be this tough. sad life sia. what's gonna happen to me in the future. suddenly think of that que sera sera song. Will i be handsome, will i be rich?... den thought of the second part. whatever will be will be.. will it? Is life predestined? Will i control life？ or will life control me? I would chose the first. but will i be predestined to have a predestined life?
Firstly, as i said, i had a bad start to the year. 命 controlled much of this. NZ. but i also had a say. what if i joined choir? what if i tried for house comm, SC, CT or such things? I would not say i have tried my best. in fact. i am dissapointed with myself. utterly dissapointed. yet until now, i had always blamed it on NZ and the resultant lost of chances and opportunities. but can i? no. i can't. only myself to blame. what if i never went NZ? i may have not been able to continue in VJ at all. partial 9 means i may be in TJ at this time. and will i be good there?..... Acceptance. all this is now the past. regrets they will remain. but now i will look to the future. Now i will try to control life. Life has controlled me for nearly 17 years now. Its time for change. but can i? i seriously don't know, but i will try. But will i? I will try to try.
Second thoughts. am i really that bad? do i really need scholarship? Is there no place for me? compared to the entire singapore cohort. i am still near the top. but this is mere 阿Q. scholarships. do i really need them. my family isnt very rich. financial pressure will come with failure to get scholarship. suddenly think another thing. what am i gonna take in Uni? seriously. I don't know. now feel that i am not the worst. but not the champion i wanna be.
thirdly. also reflected on my character. lies. cheating. foul language. all this are damn bad now i see them. will strive to change. although i am not sure if i will change the above 2 things mentioned due to my lazyness and my tendency to forget such things after a while, but esp this point i will strive to change.
lol. on a brighter note. really enjoyed the chalet. event of the chalet: The Diego punishment. Moral of the story: 害人害己. lolz. it was fun though. lolz
went vivo with reub, zhou n joko juz now. watched casino royale. qutie nice. lolz. actually is damn nice. n vivo is really super big sia.
lolz. nth much.. in kinda sad mood currently. feel as though thousand kg of stone is resting on me right now. but having write it out and sorting my thoughts in the process feel that this has relieved a little. but its still there. lolz
till nxt time..
THE CLARET AND BLUE
DIEGO
Longest time.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
lolz. it has been the longest time since i posted. lolz.
hooked on to magic again after joko reintroduced it to me. lolz. great memories i have of the game. i still remember last time sec 2 everytime recess get thrashed by kian kwee den i revived and i think became quite good at it. before the introduction of big money into the game which ruined the game. somehow like the current football scene. but now i like magic sia. met zhou reubs n joko like 2 times last wk 2 play magic. they should set up magic as a cca, den i sure join n damn enthu.
went ray's house dunno mon or tues. played FM 2 player. quite fun at 1st, den slowly became boring. lolz. den found out ray dun eat organs. lolz. u should man. pig organs esp liver is damn nice. lolz. but again one man's meat is another man's poison.
sian. need to study soon. haven touched my books for the longest time. except for 武侠小说s. which i think is damn interesting. how i wish to have some skill like theirs. den i dun nid study liao. lolz. den my mother juz kped me for reading those book. told me last time be4 cina exams ask me read dun wan read, now read cina for wad. lolz.
was damn demoralised by my father juz now. lolz. haiz. dun wanna tok bout it.
lolz. feel that i damn slack. but can't bring myself to the books. lolz. not yet anyway. mayb after the chalets then will sit down and study. lolz.
haiz. lolz.
till nxt time.
THE CLARET AND BLUE
DIEGO
what a week
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
what a week. no more H3 for me. tt sux. father's gonna kill me again. sian. there goes my scholarship. lolz. haiz
PW ends. not bad i think. but gd thing tt it ended. lolz.
futbol for awhile juz now.sun. then rain stopped us from continuing
later going out with ran, reubs n zhou.
sian. mixed feelings now. father coming back at night. how am i gonna say.
till nxt time.. lolz.
谢谢你。希望你指的人不是我。 算了。
THE CLARET AND BLUE
DIEGO
Thursday, November 02, 2006
lolz. as i continue my FM adventures. i decided to heck care my PW I&R. did it half way but not at all pleased with it. lolz. hating it. dunno wad to write.. lolz. cos our project is perfect.. lolz. joking joking.. lolz. its super imperfect.. like marvel nemesis, rise of the imperfects, who is damn imperfect. lolz.
Anyway, this is my squad for the new season. Bolstered my defence. Heck, i practically revolutionized it with my 3 new signings. offloaded James Collins and Daniel Gabbidon who i would say are not really tok kong defenders. the other players i bought in are young talents whom i think will one day suceed. mayb. anyway they cost so little so must as well buy them instead of letting them go to some club like chelsea who will turn them against me.
Anyway, these are some screenshots i took from the game as well as from FM scout. lolz. its really a damn amazing game. lolz. screw I&R. lolz.
today cina a levels was easy. super easy. quite confident bout it. lolz.
tomolo got PW again. lolz. must pia for it. hope can get a good grade for it.. like my great declaration at the beginning of yr. I will score a A. lolz.
damn sian, parents juz stopped me from going out cos i had a slight asthma attack last night lolz. gonna go eat now. body still dun feel really well. tomolo may kick. hope i can recover in time.
till nxt time.
go eat now.
THE CLARET AND BLUE
DIEGO
THE CHAMPION
Wong. Diego Wong
11/12
17
Coral Pri, Anglican High,Victoria JC, Jedi Academy
wong.vieri32@gmail.com
GOALS
#1Play in World cup group stage
#2play in world cup round of 16
#3play in world cup quarter finals
#4play in world cup semi finals
#5play in world cup finals
#6win the world cup
#7Own a Lamborghini Gallardo Spyder
#8 RULE THE WORLD
