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2 daes after o... sad.. Sunday, November 20, 2005

today not starting e post wif e normal lol.. and u would see less lols in this post(lol).. sat went and watch harry potter, quite funny... lame show.. den voldemort looks like darth vader without mask.. den i tell joko say voldemort is harry father.. .den vodemort will say," harry, I am your father.." harry:"NO!!!!! IT can't be, my father was killed by you." Voldermort:" that is a lie. A lie to make you kill me... ".

den at e 7th book, harry joins voldemort as his hier.... rating of 8/10... " we muz chose between what is right, and what is easy."... but for me, the right is the easy and the easy is right.. after watch movie went but game.. den went home found that my room light spoil... den went 2 slp at 8... cos i cannot on my light.

anyway, today so far sux... morn went 2 send my sis 2 buddha class outing.. den eat ot potong pasir or something.. after which i reached home... den guess wad i do.... yes you got it... i on e com.. and came online.. not really online as i started playing game first.. den my father came KPKB me say allow me 1 hour... eh, its after o levels man.. what he want me to do... study for a level ah?. den say wad will get addicted... he is treating the com like some hyper addictive drug lor.. say what play more than one hour a day will get addicited.. to fuck with that man!!!. i mean, i know his starting point is good.. but tell me... how many hours other ppl plae daily.. i know of ppl hu play from 10 am to 4am.. and i am like 3pm-6pm and he kpkb me.. den engage with verbal war with me. surely so easy addicited one.. den when he use for 8hrs in a row.. he say he doing thing for us.. den when i go online see soccer news he say waste time.. den i come here blog, he say it is a sort of game.. den i play game he say i addicted.. den what he want me to do... pissed off with him man.. one day when i am financially independent, which i plan to be at 18.. i will walk out of him man... ok.. you may say i am mean.. but you know hu my father is, how he is like.... he is a dictator, a communist, a fascist, a control freak, hitler, stalin, khruschev,mussolini,qin shi huang, saddam hussein put together, he is making the family seems like a dictatorship country, and i now feel how bad it is to be under a dictatorship.. if he like to control so much why he give birth to me and wed my mother.. he should have got a remote control robot instead that willl do his every bidding and not talk back and will not touch the com except mayb to recharge.

Den just now worst thing is he shouted at my mum when she helped defend me saying that i can control myself. he railed at her lor. IF there is one thing i can't stand is ppl railing at my mother... as you noe, my father is away abt 5 daes a week at work in malaysia.. I appreciate the fact that he is working so hard for us, but does that give him the right to control.. if that is so, the hardest working worker should control every company instead of the CEO or the president or anything similar.. ANd he kip on saying my grades will becum worst if my mother treat me and allow me play com as i wish.. but by leaving everything to me like my mum does my grades improved lor..since he left sec 3 end.. my results improved much. ok.. fair enuff tt my grades also did improve sec1-2 when he was the dictator.. but none of my 3 years had i been in e top 10 bracket of e class..except 4 this last term prelim where i was 9th.. this shows that my mother is the better leader lor.. so he should juz shuddup bout his "study everyday, every hour, every moment, every minute, every second to get good grades theory"...

damn, still feel angry, and buay song.. i railed at him.. he has no reply on my saying of my grades improved or he is a dictator.. but is keep on repeating this.. "there muz be a time limit, no no limits.." and when i say i have my own limits he say he didn't trust me..

this is not e end.. he is the kind hu want everything law by law according to a timetable or something.. i rmb last time went frenz house and missed i afternoon studying hours he stopped me from resting at night.. and i was doing project at my frenz house , and he say that is considered playing... and since when did school project work is called playing?.. he should live i a dictatorial country man.. if there is one left... history tells us that dictatorships always fail.. and he is still using that now...

OK, currently he is still argueing with my mother... he is such a stubborn old fool man.. why can't my father be like someother ppl's father... hu allow me to rest after o level for a day instead an hour.

ok.. damn sad tt i dun wanna tok bout it... not sad actually but angry... but i think i have a sadder life than reubs... at least he can play xbox till 4 in e morn be4 his father ask him 2 sleep...

seriously contemplating leaving home now... to where i dunno.. but i dun think i can survive it if he kip in on this way.... and going 2 a parental help course doesn't help.. cos he have went for that and is too stubborn 2 believe e fact tt onli if i play 18 hrs a day without control is called addiction 2 e com....

ok.. tts all.. now no mood 2 joke liao... mayb 2 molo regain lameness....

see ya... rmb 2 tag me.

THE CLARET AND BLUE

DIEGO